Back, sorta...*just takes her journal from another place and pastes it here too as she doesn't feel like thinking of new ways to express herself*
Well, I'm back. I was hop-ed up on painkillers yesterday and some of today, but now I'm back. Sorta.
I'm not quite sure what I should say or if I want to say too much. I got a nice little pill that is suppose to cure all of my worries in a certain area. I have a flu. And I've been diagnosed -- or however the fuck you spell it-- with a fun little thing that means I have cronic Anxiety attacks. Yeah, me, Panic attacks. Random and will apparently continue to have them for the rest of my life.
It makes sense, sorta, only in the way I couldn't believe it at first. I'm calm aren't I? I handle things rationally and try not to let life bother me. And everyone's saying the same fucking thing "Oh stress, yeah, I get those too sometimes" Fuck you. Fuck you fuck you fuck you. It's not the same. I can't BREATH sometimes -- my chest is tight and my heart is pounding and my limbs are numb and I'm dizzy and it hurts to breath and my head hurts and... yeah. Try having that happen just RANDOMLY once and a while, no warning and often without a reason. Then tell me you understand.
It runs in the family, my mom actually gets them too. Apparently I've been handling them well according to my doctor. School stress = why I've been having so many problems lately. Combined with my mild eating disorder, body image issues, and general not taking care of myself. If the attacks get worse or more frequent they might have to put me on medication. How fun.
Unfortunatly that's not all folks. I have a bunch of other symptoms that my doctor wants checked out. I have to go get a bunch of bloodwork done friday and some tests. Could be anything from something minor to something serious. Heart, lungs, circulation, thyroid.. whatever. It could be worse though.
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I hope you get all checked out and everything comes back fine...or not too bad at least....*sighs*...I have to wait until NOVEMBER to see a doctor....it's the first time i've considered my doctor an ass....
*lays on you*....we are falling apart?...stupid bodies....anyways...i loves you...and i hope to talk to you soon....
i get them to a really bad extent but they most of the time i know what causes them.. not totally random..
always stress related..
or im freaking out because of something ..
like when a guy is too close to me.. i panic
they've been getting worse lately..
but i hate doctors
dont stress so much (i know thats hard)
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*hugs* I hate going to doctors because they either do tons of tests and then tell me nothing's wrong or shove pills down my throat. They're just trying to overcharge us so they can pay for their med school debts.
Medication sucks cock, and I hope you don't have to take any more than the one you got.
I have a similar issue with some mental problems, and I hate all this medication and procedures...so in light of that I hope this all comes to an end for you and you can rest easier.
So I hope you're doing well, or will do well soon.
(PS: I watched Advent Children finally, and I think I'm in love.)
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But watch it! If you keep this up we're gonna end-up havign cloned health. And that would just be pathetic. Like: *miru and becca sitting around coughing* =0.o=;;;;;; *plots and continues to cough and die*
Do feel better. *snugglesandlovesandlovesandsnuggles*
And I need to catch you online. =X.x=; I miss you like no tomorrow.
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I miiiiisssss mah wife. *le pout*
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In Europe, we had empires; France and Spain and – and Britain and – and Turkey! The Ottoman Empire, full of furniture for some reason. And the Austro-Hungarian Empire, famous for fuck all! Yes, all they did was slowly collapse like a flan in a
I like medication.. just not when I actually NEED it.
(PS: Fun fact, my friends think I look like a female Reno with shorter hair... I blame my random wear-age of a suit jacket and dress shirt with sunglasses on my head.. O_o)
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In Europe, we had empires; France and Spain and – and Britain and – and Turkey! The Ottoman Empire, full of furniture for some reason. And the Austro-Hungarian Empire, famous for fuck all! Yes, all they did was slowly collapse like a flan in a
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In Europe, we had empires; France and Spain and – and Britain and – and Turkey! The Ottoman Empire, full of furniture for some reason. And the Austro-Hungarian Empire, famous for fuck all! Yes, all they did was slowly collapse like a flan in a
Heh, I'm just glad I live in Canada. Yay free health care.
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In Europe, we had empires; France and Spain and – and Britain and – and Turkey! The Ottoman Empire, full of furniture for some reason. And the Austro-Hungarian Empire, famous for fuck all! Yes, all they did was slowly collapse like a flan in a
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